Where am I?

As much for me to keep track of the menagerie of players as for your benefit Dear Reader. I had this idea I would run out and find a couple of guys to fool around with and drop them as the one night stands they were intended. I find however I leave unfinished business and the more I involve myself the more I seek other entanglements.

First and truly foremost, despite everything is my husband, alternately known as hubby, DH, and when I had to give him a name in Vegas, Alan...(middle name). I thought a lot about him this weekend in light of the very graphic display of fidelity under duress by the ever-chivalrous Jim.

I asked myself if Alan would be able to hold back from a near naked girl in his car. The answer I came up with is no, few men would or even want to try. Alan, though to his credit, wouldn't have put himself in the car, I don't think.

I wonder, still where he was going with that ad. He never followed through beyond a two vague, feeling him out emails with Jim. I don;t think he was trying to "catch me" because I havent really given him any cause to think I would stray..(well until recently). It was a little unclear what he saw of maybe some online flirtation, didn't sound like he was mad about that, more interested, so I think it was a fantasy of seeing me return to my slutty ways mostly for good 'bedtime stories'. I have told him all the old ones with a couple I withheld for various reasons.

Anyway, in general he is a good husband, looks fabulous in panties ~smirk~, and when I ratcheted up my kink, he was right there with me and it was fun. Like a renewal of sorts.

I have already decided as somebody wrote me that the Genie isn't going back in the bottle, but I was THINKING I was fairly sated, and would concentrate on my marriage a bit more..but you know I still have my toes circling in the pool. A Lot.

I have updated my Ashley-Madison profile after a conversation with a pen pal. He is an inch shorter than my 5'9" and we were talking about how hot it looks when you do see a shorter guy walking confidently with a taller woman in heels...I changed what I was looking for to 5'4" just to see what was out there...wow a lot more..and it sure seems that kinky is inversely proportional to height. (proud of the proportionality, Mr. Larsen?). Short guys had interesting profiles...In talking to my friend I said I would go out and fuck the shortest guy that messaged me. I don't know that I will actually do that exactly, but I am looking more broadly. Not opposed to an actual midget mind you, but doesn;t that smack of cheap exploitative porn? Come to think of it the voyeur at the 4th of July party was kind short, but young too. Not opposed to the whole age thing but the whole cougar / cub thing seems sort of contrived to me.

So anyway I have a few guys I am talking to from there, off and on...most messages there start with "I know you get a lot of messages...." and that's kind of true. I am over feeling like I have to respond to each and everyone, but they make a great place to 'shop' for a fantasy guy. I kind of put this guys attributes with that a one and his looks, and his grin and so on and build a guy for fantasy fodder. A few seem pretty fuckable in their own right. I like that you can ignore the rejects too. I put the rude guy out to pasture after a couple of insistant messages. Poof gone. The only one I have been with from there is Marcus, who was the "Early Bird" to the group thing I tried. He was a good lay and on my to do again list. I talk to him off and on and he doesn't push. I pouted that he left out Greek in our little afternoon tour, he has promised to attack that with a vengeance when we meet again, so he's thinking again too.

He joked about whether I was gone by the time the intended occupant of the room got there. (He had gotten it for a salesman in town for a conference.) We discussed hostesses -so called- at some of these events...basically they are party girls hired to spice up cocktail hour but it is generally understood that they are also hookers and can, for a tip, be taken back to your room. I laughed that I am much to old to be taken for a 'hostess' but he assured me there is a specialty niche for all and he has seen women my age competantly working a room to wide interest...something to think about when there is an event. I flat out asked him if he could get me in convincingly if I was feeling that bold, and he assured me he could. More fun to think about than something I see myself doing for real..

Then there is Jim hovering in the background of it all. He set up the blog and sent me off on kinky adventures. He points out he only asked what ifs and I ran with a couple. He is faithful (mostly) to Wifey, and I won;t push that. We made out, it was fun. Love to again. Jim says he is a little worried I may come with kryptonite in my pocket next time.

Today I was teasing Derek at work again. He isn't really an 'actor' in my little kinky play, but someone asked about him in the context of him possibly be subbie as he seems to have an interest in my slutty heels. That got me thinking about him more than I should a SUBordinate (get it?) but I exaggerated my reasons for swinging a heel his direction and could have practically hypnotized him from his eyes locked on them. (Turquoise. Cute, kind of low kitten-heeled pumps...matched my bra and panties to them...sheer nude thigh highs, but he doesn't know that of course.) I even "straightened up my desk" while bending his direction he should have gotten an eyeful of cleavage, but he kept stealing glances below the knee so he is definitely not a boob man. Funny I usually attract guy that think my eyes are at nipple height. ~shrug~

I almost forgot Subway boy. I never knew his name I don;t think nor did I give him one. It was a one time thing, I wanted a slutty warm-up and he generously offered a cock to suck and that was about it. He had asked to reciprocate, but I wasn't looking to extend that, he hasn't persisted...I could see surprising him sometime, but honestly, blowing my husband in his office with his straight-laced secretary next door was hotter. Now if I can just get 'Prudence' on her knees helping me out...~kidding~ I mean I think the whole corrupting the innocent is hot, but no wife wants that kind of treat available to her hubby every workday, right?

I also have a little fun going with a highly suggestible submissive. He wasn't asking for it and I wasn't offering, but there was a little click. I will say no more here, but I think his story (past and future) is interesting, but he's not much of an exhibitionist.

Along the way I have collected interesting correspondence from various people about three-ways, girl-girl experiences, panty-fetishists, S&M, and various men yearning for wives to control them, cuck them or fuck them..all pretty interesting stuff. Keep them coming.