OK, maybe it's because we have been married a long time but can't see my hubby as a lisping sissy.
Not a total he-man but a sissy? naw.
My friend always says "YET!" whenever I protest hubby isnt into the whole cuckold sissy thing...he is more interested in the whole slutwife he controls thing..I'm getting interested in the slut-cheating-wife-he knows nothing about thing...at least in fantasy.
Not even in panties..
I kNOW i KNOW...
A contridiction there....
My friend and fellow revenge plotter made me a gentlewoman's bet that I could get him in a pair of panties..and following his directions I did but somehow it just doesnt seem to count...
A long time ago, when roleplaying in bed I was telling him how hot it would be for me to be with a girl..(that part wasn't roleplaying I've always thought so...I just haven't taken the opportunity to you know actually...)
Anyway, my hubby and I are in the same general size..he has bigger shoulders, I have bigger tits and ass..you know basic boy girl differences...when I am skinny I can wear his jeans and he mine but we fill them out totally differently.
So when pretending in bed I was licking his nipples pretending they were the babysitters or some such and teasing a trail down....anyway I remember him having a fantasy once after we had accidently left one of my costume-y corsetts out that the babysitter may or may not have seen depending how nosy she was..(I was always nosy so I actually think yeah she probably saw it)..so I suggested since I was pretending he was the babysitter....I strapped the corsett around his ribs and with a little stretch and pulling managed to get it fastened up the back....it was one of those ones that has the garter straps hanging below so I went to the dresser and opened up a new package of back seamed blackstockings and with a lot of giggling managed to get them over his sharp toenails and hair legs....I think something more opaque might have looked sexier, and he said he looked like Frankenfurter from Rocky horror. (I actually think Tim Curry was VERY sexy in drag!) anyway...we laughed about it a lot the next day, he said it looked ridiculous, but my being so excited t9o do whas kinda hot. I remeber him being especially vigorous while wearing it, but every time Ive brought it up he points out he's way to hairy to be a he-she...I point out razors were invented for just such a thing...he says not enough razors on the planet, etc etc..
I had told my friend about this and he said I should just dress him up and call him a sissy..see how it goes...I know my hubby and that totally wouldnt work...
My friend said I definately could just baby steps...
so....I did..baby steps..just like my friend suggested..and it worked..
he looked silly, yes, but there he wa in a baby-blue see-through pair of my french cut panties that I haven't worn in ages...I even got him to stroke himself in them...he looked embarrassed and turned on at the same time...
In case (and I don't see this as a real urgent need for anyone out there) you want to get your manly man into a pair of panties...here is how it was done..
First I just anounced I was horney by hopping into his lap in a skirt and doing a stripper-lap dance grind thing on him..he was at attention of course immediately..
I got his pants off and started teasing him with your basic nibble and licks sort of thing im sure I don;t need to elaborate...
I climbed on him and started stroking him with the hem of my skirt then announced as if I had just thought of it ..hmm thats not soft enough...
I led him by his well you know into the bedroom and pushed him back on the bed...I was on top gently stroking him with the gusset of my satiny panties...
I reached into the top drawer and pulled out a pair (that I had pre placed at the front) of panties I was going to put on him...I gave him a teasing hand job as I wrapped the fabric around it...I outlined his cock..and told him how hot it looked through the sheer fabric......
I told him I want to feel that against my pussy!
I slipped it up one leg then without really saying anything guided his other foot through and slid them up....there he was wearing them and having that embarrassed grin on..
I covered his cock with my pussy and really did get off rubbing against him like a highschool virgin..it was pretty hot...
I pulled off and apologised for "creaming your panties" they were two ...totally see through from my wet slit....
Ok, retelling this it was pretty hot...partly just because and partly because I was doing this specifically because another man had asked me to. (In my defense this all started because my Husband was trying to get him to hit on me...)
I backed up a bit and teased the egdes of the panties with my tongue and said
"stroke it for me.."
He closed his eyes and started to....
I was supposed to coo in his ear about how hot that ws how huge his cock looked in it and how turned on I was getting...
It totally was all those things....
The only thing that would have made it hotter would have been my friend hiding under the bed sneaking to the edge so I could grind myself on his mouth as I watched..(another fantasy we talk about...but never will im sure..) :)
Anyway I am supposed to make this a regular part of our play...we will see..seems at some point he's going to rebel....
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
What he wants. What I want.
OK, I read my last post and it sort of makes sense to me but I don;t think it makes sense if you read it and don;t know the situation.
I will go back and add stuff to explain like cuckolds and hotwifes (I got a new term I like too called slutwives).
I don't know exactly what my husband is because I have been reading a lot of what is called erotica which just means dirty stories really and when there is a cuckold he is sort of like a weak guy with a small dick that can't satisfy or it doesnt work like an accident or something. When it is written by a girl it seems like she is a bitch and likes laughing at him, and when its a guy it seems like he just likes to be embarrassed, like when you are so blushing you almost pee yourself or something..maybe that feels good to guys like sexually or something. I don't know.
My husband would say he isn't like that. He isn't like a jock guy, well not at all he is a nerdy type, but he isn't small dicked or anything, just normal, like 6-7 inches...we did the dollar bill thing once and so hes like average. Thats not really the point though. I think he likes my old stories..(Oh I meant to mention in the last one, I started to..I had adventures, I explained early on I am not a virgin and been with people and so on and well he got off on the stories...so I kept telling them till as far as he knows I ran out of the stories..)
Anyway its like he likes my old stories and if he had a time machine he would send me back to like fuck the whole football team in the back of the bus or something. He seems to think if he "gives me permission" and picks the guy and I act like a little whore that there is no consequences. Like A if I could just fuck someone that I don't feel something for romance or whatever, and B like in some way he wouldn't have power over me because now I am a whore or whatever and well...
Ok my friend (I gotta explain him and all that, but thats another thing about how this started..another post) anyway he says that the way my husband has tried to set things up, basically he is still fucking me, getting off on fucking me but just using another guys dick basically. That finally made sense to me. We have you know toys? Like dildos that look like a dick some buzz, some don't. Sometimes he likes to watch me put it in, in fact I usually use them mostly outside when I am by myself, but he likes to say things like yeah he's fucking you good and stuff..sometimes I blow him during and he says its like Im getting it from two guys so yeah it makes sense in a way. Its like my husband wants a guy there to be like a living fake dick for me to fuck and him to control. You can see why I would be mad if I could see this in his head.
The way he tried to set me up was creepy and really UNFORGIVABLE. Even though he didn't go through with what he started, it is still pretty sick. My friend has been talking to him (well emailing him) again and he is either a little suspicious or maybe he was all talk, but still. He has something coming and I don't know what.
My friends point. ( I need to give him a name here - suggestions?) his point that got me not to yell at my husband the day I found out was first even if I do leave him or punish him, get all the dirt first. Then do what I want not what his actions drove me to in a blind rage. He also showed me all the ways I could use this either as a leverage if I later tell him I know what he tried, or make him think I don;t know and have my friend plant ideas that give me freedom and goodies that he thinks he controls but he doesnt.
Bottom line my friend said was, "If you met a guy you wanted to have an affair with, wouldn't it be cool if your husband gave you permission, gave you allowence to afford the lingerie, the hotel, the full body massage at the concierge, watched the kids, and got NOTHING sexually out of it?" He showed me how I could have a clean conscience and a dirty secret at the same time.
We have laughed that if I go step by step by step, I could have him as my obedient little cuckold, sitting blindfolded in the corner with a pair of panties in his mouth as a gag, and another hiding the shame of his little dick. This is kind of a joke since it would definatle bulge out of them so it wouldnt hide much. I know, Ive seen it..`giggle~ The first time for that was a long time ago, but my friend..(Instructer? ) told me just what to do to get him to wear them again the other night and it worked. I mean it looked just silly but MAKING him do it was hot. That night was the reason my friend thought I should start a blog because he says trannys are hot in porn. I laughed because my husband has no boobies for sure and is too hairy even to be a european chick!
Anyway I promised him I'd write about it, but I think it was just silly and needs something to make it interesting, but my friend says, no it was hot because it was like gentle femdom...(whole another thing Ive had to google and learn about..not me, but hot kinda in a revenge fantasy way..)
Oh, what I want was the point here and I don't know so far though I am just like setting him up the way he set me up, and letting him think I might fall for his bait. I'm not sure if he just decided it was a bad idea in general or if I unknowingly said something that made him think I suspected because he quit after a week or two from the ad, and my friend says he said that he worries I know something..I do NOW, but didn't then so i'm confused.
I will go back and add stuff to explain like cuckolds and hotwifes (I got a new term I like too called slutwives).
I don't know exactly what my husband is because I have been reading a lot of what is called erotica which just means dirty stories really and when there is a cuckold he is sort of like a weak guy with a small dick that can't satisfy or it doesnt work like an accident or something. When it is written by a girl it seems like she is a bitch and likes laughing at him, and when its a guy it seems like he just likes to be embarrassed, like when you are so blushing you almost pee yourself or something..maybe that feels good to guys like sexually or something. I don't know.
My husband would say he isn't like that. He isn't like a jock guy, well not at all he is a nerdy type, but he isn't small dicked or anything, just normal, like 6-7 inches...we did the dollar bill thing once and so hes like average. Thats not really the point though. I think he likes my old stories..(Oh I meant to mention in the last one, I started to..I had adventures, I explained early on I am not a virgin and been with people and so on and well he got off on the stories...so I kept telling them till as far as he knows I ran out of the stories..)
Anyway its like he likes my old stories and if he had a time machine he would send me back to like fuck the whole football team in the back of the bus or something. He seems to think if he "gives me permission" and picks the guy and I act like a little whore that there is no consequences. Like A if I could just fuck someone that I don't feel something for romance or whatever, and B like in some way he wouldn't have power over me because now I am a whore or whatever and well...
Ok my friend (I gotta explain him and all that, but thats another thing about how this started..another post) anyway he says that the way my husband has tried to set things up, basically he is still fucking me, getting off on fucking me but just using another guys dick basically. That finally made sense to me. We have you know toys? Like dildos that look like a dick some buzz, some don't. Sometimes he likes to watch me put it in, in fact I usually use them mostly outside when I am by myself, but he likes to say things like yeah he's fucking you good and stuff..sometimes I blow him during and he says its like Im getting it from two guys so yeah it makes sense in a way. Its like my husband wants a guy there to be like a living fake dick for me to fuck and him to control. You can see why I would be mad if I could see this in his head.
The way he tried to set me up was creepy and really UNFORGIVABLE. Even though he didn't go through with what he started, it is still pretty sick. My friend has been talking to him (well emailing him) again and he is either a little suspicious or maybe he was all talk, but still. He has something coming and I don't know what.
My friends point. ( I need to give him a name here - suggestions?) his point that got me not to yell at my husband the day I found out was first even if I do leave him or punish him, get all the dirt first. Then do what I want not what his actions drove me to in a blind rage. He also showed me all the ways I could use this either as a leverage if I later tell him I know what he tried, or make him think I don;t know and have my friend plant ideas that give me freedom and goodies that he thinks he controls but he doesnt.
Bottom line my friend said was, "If you met a guy you wanted to have an affair with, wouldn't it be cool if your husband gave you permission, gave you allowence to afford the lingerie, the hotel, the full body massage at the concierge, watched the kids, and got NOTHING sexually out of it?" He showed me how I could have a clean conscience and a dirty secret at the same time.
We have laughed that if I go step by step by step, I could have him as my obedient little cuckold, sitting blindfolded in the corner with a pair of panties in his mouth as a gag, and another hiding the shame of his little dick. This is kind of a joke since it would definatle bulge out of them so it wouldnt hide much. I know, Ive seen it..`giggle~ The first time for that was a long time ago, but my friend..(Instructer? ) told me just what to do to get him to wear them again the other night and it worked. I mean it looked just silly but MAKING him do it was hot. That night was the reason my friend thought I should start a blog because he says trannys are hot in porn. I laughed because my husband has no boobies for sure and is too hairy even to be a european chick!
Anyway I promised him I'd write about it, but I think it was just silly and needs something to make it interesting, but my friend says, no it was hot because it was like gentle femdom...(whole another thing Ive had to google and learn about..not me, but hot kinda in a revenge fantasy way..)
Oh, what I want was the point here and I don't know so far though I am just like setting him up the way he set me up, and letting him think I might fall for his bait. I'm not sure if he just decided it was a bad idea in general or if I unknowingly said something that made him think I suspected because he quit after a week or two from the ad, and my friend says he said that he worries I know something..I do NOW, but didn't then so i'm confused.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
It begins.....
The question is what is "IT?"
Obviously, this first post begins this blog. Funny, I know people that blog. Obsessively. Like my sister who has what she calls a "foodie blog". As I never plan to tell her I blog (now) I feel safe in saying she is a terrible cook. ~snark~ I am pretty sure she just trades recipies for an excuse to get drunk on good red wine. I know several women at church that have blogs about their kids to brag about. I am a mother but when you see where this blog is headed you can see why I won't be posting pics of kids with ice cream smeared noses....
I never saw the point of writing a blogsite. It seemed like a notice me notice me sort of thing, and I can't see who reads them unless you already know them and their kids and stuff. For some reason I didn't know about some of the ~ahem~ shall we say "more interesting" blogs.
Some with pics even. (Do NOT expect any such pics here!!!) Not just because I am too shy and too old to be a playmate wannabe, but because no one can know who I am.
Well sort of. I can't decide if this is a place to vent and never show my husband, or a place to keep track of stuff before a potential divorce..(I think my friend has talked me out of that for now). Or if its a place that I will take back my power as a women and my own sensuality and eventually when he is properly humbled rub his knows in it by showing it to him. My friend says no, never show him, it'll have to end then if he knows and my friend assures me that this will be popular.
Not that I want to be popular and anyway thats weird. How do you get popular or at least why does it matter if you are popular if no one knows who you are?
Anyway, he says infidelity blogs and hotwife blogs and cuckold blogs are very popular because they are tittilating. ~teehee~ I love that word, I didn't know it till he explained it to me. Well I didn't know the other words either exactly. I mean I figure a hot wife is one that looks good, and I know the word cuckold from romance novels but it never seems a positive at all. Infidelity I know and I have never done. I was amazed reading other peoples blogs once my friend showed me to them about how flexible stuff can be. I thought you were either faithful, a slut, or maybe in one of those 1970's "open marriage" things.
I thought my husband was completely weird when he would encourage talk in bed about me being with someone else. I mean a guy. For some reason another girl like a threeway I mean seems well not normal but more acceptable and not cheating. I have even had joking (I THINK!) conversations with girlfriends and co-workers about how thats every guys fantasy.
So about my husband..I would play along in bed with talk like that and sometimes it was kinda hot some times it seemed like playacting or whatever. Sometimes it was kinda boring especially if he was having me talk about being with someone he thought I would think was hot, but was like uh, no. But you can't have a whole conversation about what is hot in a guy or whatever. I kinda felt like I started the whole thing but looking back, it was all his fantasy really at least then.
You see I was pretty popular when I was young and like most girls could get it whenever I wanted. I had a series of boyfriends and that led to a series of adventures that that he seemd to enjoy hearing about. He came from a religous family and more than that was shy, so he didn't have much (well really any) experience until me. We didn't even fuck untill we actually got married, and believe me if he had made me wait any longer I would have cheated on him before the wedding just to get some relief! But I didn't and haven't. In more years than I want to admit. And I totally could, especially now. I was already losing weight for most of a year before all this came up a couple of months ago, and if not for my friend I probably would have gone on a binge and been a fat divorcee by now, but I am sort of on a mission now, so I watch what I eat and look good..not to brag, but guys notice me. I notice them noticing me. My husband likes me to notice. But I don't give him the satisfaction of knowing I saw too. When all this started a month ago. (two?) I was so ready to throw out all my "slut" clothes or maybe only wear them or whatever..I am so glad I held my cool and didn't say anything to husband til I had time to think, because I have such an evil thrill fantasizing about all the ways this could go.
Obviously, this first post begins this blog. Funny, I know people that blog. Obsessively. Like my sister who has what she calls a "foodie blog". As I never plan to tell her I blog (now) I feel safe in saying she is a terrible cook. ~snark~ I am pretty sure she just trades recipies for an excuse to get drunk on good red wine. I know several women at church that have blogs about their kids to brag about. I am a mother but when you see where this blog is headed you can see why I won't be posting pics of kids with ice cream smeared noses....
I never saw the point of writing a blogsite. It seemed like a notice me notice me sort of thing, and I can't see who reads them unless you already know them and their kids and stuff. For some reason I didn't know about some of the ~ahem~ shall we say "more interesting" blogs.
Some with pics even. (Do NOT expect any such pics here!!!) Not just because I am too shy and too old to be a playmate wannabe, but because no one can know who I am.
Well sort of. I can't decide if this is a place to vent and never show my husband, or a place to keep track of stuff before a potential divorce..(I think my friend has talked me out of that for now). Or if its a place that I will take back my power as a women and my own sensuality and eventually when he is properly humbled rub his knows in it by showing it to him. My friend says no, never show him, it'll have to end then if he knows and my friend assures me that this will be popular.
Not that I want to be popular and anyway thats weird. How do you get popular or at least why does it matter if you are popular if no one knows who you are?
Anyway, he says infidelity blogs and hotwife blogs and cuckold blogs are very popular because they are tittilating. ~teehee~ I love that word, I didn't know it till he explained it to me. Well I didn't know the other words either exactly. I mean I figure a hot wife is one that looks good, and I know the word cuckold from romance novels but it never seems a positive at all. Infidelity I know and I have never done. I was amazed reading other peoples blogs once my friend showed me to them about how flexible stuff can be. I thought you were either faithful, a slut, or maybe in one of those 1970's "open marriage" things.
I thought my husband was completely weird when he would encourage talk in bed about me being with someone else. I mean a guy. For some reason another girl like a threeway I mean seems well not normal but more acceptable and not cheating. I have even had joking (I THINK!) conversations with girlfriends and co-workers about how thats every guys fantasy.
So about my husband..I would play along in bed with talk like that and sometimes it was kinda hot some times it seemed like playacting or whatever. Sometimes it was kinda boring especially if he was having me talk about being with someone he thought I would think was hot, but was like uh, no. But you can't have a whole conversation about what is hot in a guy or whatever. I kinda felt like I started the whole thing but looking back, it was all his fantasy really at least then.
You see I was pretty popular when I was young and like most girls could get it whenever I wanted. I had a series of boyfriends and that led to a series of adventures that that he seemd to enjoy hearing about. He came from a religous family and more than that was shy, so he didn't have much (well really any) experience until me. We didn't even fuck untill we actually got married, and believe me if he had made me wait any longer I would have cheated on him before the wedding just to get some relief! But I didn't and haven't. In more years than I want to admit. And I totally could, especially now. I was already losing weight for most of a year before all this came up a couple of months ago, and if not for my friend I probably would have gone on a binge and been a fat divorcee by now, but I am sort of on a mission now, so I watch what I eat and look good..not to brag, but guys notice me. I notice them noticing me. My husband likes me to notice. But I don't give him the satisfaction of knowing I saw too. When all this started a month ago. (two?) I was so ready to throw out all my "slut" clothes or maybe only wear them or whatever..I am so glad I held my cool and didn't say anything to husband til I had time to think, because I have such an evil thrill fantasizing about all the ways this could go.
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