This has gone far beyond either harmless fantasy, or even a revenge fuck. Technically to be a revenge fuck I think Hubby would have to have fucked someone, not just tried to set me up to BE fucked....
Earlybird as much as calling me a tease was fair. I do like the attention, and thought that as long as I'm not leading anyone on, it is all pretty harmless explorative talk. The problem is although it has provided endless fodder for increasingly long showers, and trips to the upstairs bathroom (That hardly anyone uses) at work, It is not satiating my urges, it is amping them up.
I have a dozen good prospects that with a little effort, I could plausibly find the time and alibi to fuck, suck, or otherwise molest. On the other hand with very little effort I could just bring it up to hubby, have him think he is helping arange a date..(ad somewhere probably) and then steer my preselcted choices to the ad.
Knowing that I could easilly be fucking like a slut in a cheezy nympho-porn as often as I like with virtually whomever I please, is heady stuff.
I find I am imagining reading minds of men that casually cross my path. When I am showing a little leg or a little cleavage, I swear I am projecting a vibe of some sort...I used to notice men looking my way out of the corner of my eye, like say at the gas pump. I used to deliberately not see them as they mustered up the courage to make some inane comment.
Now, "Sure looks like gas is over three dollars for the long haul.." sounds to my ears like "Sure would like to pay you three dollars to give me a long blowjob..." The subtext that I always assumed was there and available screams to me.
I find myself making notes on a scratch pad at work. Pros and cons of this one "next" or that one. A single guy is available on shorter notice and probably has a place...a married guy isn;t going to come mooning around. Should I find an 18 year old virgin? A couple of frat boys? A traveling businessman? A similarly bored or irratated housewife? A not-at-all-bored housewife and her swinger husband?
I liked the don't-get-caught edge of parking lot, but next time a hotel? His bachelor pad? His wife's bed?
I just like the naughty aspect of being sexual with someone that isn't so I wasn;t in anyway disapointed that "I didn;t get mine" as Subway Boy has reminded me in a couple of follow-up emails offering to recipricate. Will I feel sluttier if I actually spread my legs, what if I bend over and take it up...well you get the idea...
I have been reading all these fem-dom and cuckold blogs and stories and that has some appeal. One called spankinghubby I think or something had me writhing. I explored around fetlife a little didn't fill much out but browsing there was eyeopening.
The Earlybird (there is some kind of worm cleverness to be made out of that but I'll let it slide for now) probably deserves to be "next" and lord knows I'm (in the kindest possible way) hoping for a little marital tiff between Jim and his..well never mind. I've decided though I want something mindless; a purely recreational fuck.
As evidence of just how sex-crazed I am, hubby is sitting 15 feet from me pretending to watch TV, and I am sure wondering what it is I am furiously typing. I am trusting to the "in private" mode on this new version of windows..If it isn't private, I am fucked...and not in a good way!
Now to look up some recipies or something semi-plausible...
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